Friday, February 09, 2007
just a complete mess..
why is my life a complete mess?
simply..
cos it just is..
sighs.. im makin no head.. nor tail..
jus tt ive been troubled n thinking bout so much stuff these few days..
im on the verge of a mental break down..
as in seriously..
jus like the period b4 o's.. arnd sep or sth..
i was so eager to go visit the sch councillor to talk n for advice.. but i didnt cos things were nt really bad.. and i accepted stuff..
but.. it aint really.. hmmm.. workin out this time..?
so tts wad im prob gonna do this mon..
jus feel.. tt i need it..
esp if my results turn out to be real.. atrocious 11 hrs frm now..
n the fact tt i went out wit dino n lucas today didnt change anything.. i did hav my laughs n crapping with both of them..
heading to queensway.. scoldin dino n making fun of him while he whacks me..
n how lucas n i go arnd shops going wa wa wee wa!
n laughing at spoilt shoes on display costing 154.65
as well as buying my new wallet..
leaving there, trying to go in frnt of ppl queing for taxi's..
n laughing at them..
headed to bugis while it was closing alr..
walked arnd there n crapped as usual..
shared lame stuff n recalled past moments..
n the fact i got top 60.. which my name is on the 60th spot n the last on the table.. did make me real happy at first..
but realized it was nth really gd at the end of things..
all these was fun..
but nt enough to solve whats on my mind.. which i kept thinking abt during the quiet moments i had..
i needed answers n solutions..
so.. i guess it didnt really help much..
though i enjoyed the time spent with them( thanks guys.. n cheer up la dino.. i should be more sad then u.. )
n probably..
this is y i feel so screwed n in need of help..
1) o results
2) where to go after
3) what would be of me if i go wherever
4) i dun like studying n hav failed papers done so far
5) things aint workin out at my end
6) my life's kinda messed up
7) time's chasing me.. i feel stressed n really tired.. cant pay attention during lessons..
n.. ya..
tts sth like it?
its jus all tangled up or sth..
n.. i jus feel weird..
hopefully my results would be fine later..
jus.. hopefully..
i wanna get back to my old, laughy, cheery, positive self again..
i miss tt.........
n tt was then.....
sorry again.. i'll update definitely.. on my orientation on my next update.. unless sth really crops up.. which i hope would nt...
n.. well..
it is true the patch of grass on the other side is greener..
jus tt.. i don't like this shade of green.. n there's nth really much i could do to change it..
jus looking at the grass..
waiting..
waiting..
~"im the one who wants to be with you"
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